First off, I'll just say, that I still run into people that are absolutely incredulous to the fact that I don't drink anymore, and that I don't have plans to drink anymore, much less with them. Really now, why is it still that crazy to people that this is the way I want to live my life from now on? The minute I tried to do something that helps people to not worry about me, they started worrying about me more, apparently. It's weird. Last month I went to a show, and this girl I knew from my drinking days was wondering what I'd been up to, or was at least pretending to care about what I'd been up to. The minute I mention my sobriety, she looked at me like I was an entirely different person, like maybe she shouldn't be talking to me. Then in an effort to make her stop acting like I'm the insane one, I told her that, whether I'm drinking or not, that's not something that defines me as a person. Then she laughed. Right in my face. It doesn't bother me that that's how the scenario played out. It surprises me, though, that people are still treating this like it's an endeavor that I embarked upon only yesterday. So I ask myself, what would it take to lend credence to my self-preservation? But then I remind myself I don't need that. Between Emily and me, I have everything I need. My life is exactly the way that I want it right now.
When's the last time you've ever said that? Think about it. I guess the culmination of everything leads to me saying that. It's a great reward to give yourself.
Well, I promised myself that I would type something in these hallowed annals of my existence before midnight today. So I'm done now. Thanks for reading. Maybe I'll write something in here next year, too. *pfft*
Doesn't matter what the press says. Doesn't matter what the politicians or the mobs say. Doesn't matter if the whole country decides that something wrong is something right. This nation was founded on one principle above all else: stand up for what we believe, no matter the odds or consequences. When the mob and the press and the whole world tell you to move, your job is to plant yourself like a tree beside the river of truth and tell the whole world-- "No, YOU move."